“I was diagnosed in 2014 with Stargardt’s disease, registered severely sight impaired (blind) within a month of diagnosis! Day-to-day is a struggle, I am a mother of 3, doing everything I can to help raise awareness of this disease.”
Kay Haines was recently featured as a Woman On The Move here at Bold Blind Beauty. Today’s post shared with her permission from Instagram is so relatable to me on several levels:
First, it was shared on February 28 which was Rare Disease Day
Second, her diagnosis came out of the blue
Third, before being diagnosed she’d never heard of her eye disease
While Kay and I have two entirely different rare eye conditions, we share some similarities. The major parallel Kay and I share is our mutual desire to build awareness of blindness. She went on to say:
“Before I was diagnosed I never heard of it, I was also never aware that you could be registered blind and still have some vision. I set up this page (Instagram: @me.myself_and_eyes) to help raise awareness for both the disease and what means to be blind! I hope by sharing my journey I can educate others but also be a support network for someone.”
Blind Beauty #69 Kay Haines Featured Image Description:
Featured image is a faux fashion magazine cover titled Blind Beauty. The closeup cover photo of Woman On The Move, Kay Haines is black & white. She has long dark hair framing the right side of her face. Blocks of text superimposed on Kay’s photo are: “Bold–She Keeps Pressing Onward, Blind–She Has Deeper Insight, Beautiful–She Sees To The Heart Of Others.” “Real Beauty Transcends Barriers.” “Makeup Trends for 2019–How To Maintain A Flawless Look”
In August 2014, I was driving through some country lanes when I almost hit a tree that was in the middle of the road. I just didn’t see it until the last minute and luckily, managed to avoid hitting it. After this incident, I knew I needed to have my eyes tested again. While previous eye examinations indicated that my eyesight was fine, for some time I felt I couldn’t see things clearly.
With the expectation of being told I’d need to wear glasses full time, I got my eyes examined at Specsavers. Instead, the optician showed me an image of my eye and pointed to black areas at the back of my eye. I was scared at this point as I didn’t understand exactly what he was showing me.
He explained that from what he could see I had a disease called Stargardt’s. Coincidentally, his mother also had this disease. I asked him if glasses would help me to see properly, however, he said they wouldn’t help with my vision. He told me I needed to be referred to Moorfields Eye Hospital in London to receive an official diagnosis. I asked him outright if I was going to go blind; my heart sank when he said yes, I would! He told me that I would have to stop driving immediately.
I can’t even describe what I felt when I was told that I was going to lose my sight. My emotions were everywhere, I rang my mum and husband, I couldn’t stop crying! They thought I misunderstood but I told them to look up Stargardt’s disease online.
Over the next few days, I don’t think I stopped crying but I couldn’t just sit there any longer. Needing to know what I was facing, we contacted Moorfields and asked for a private consultation. I was seen by the doctor and it was confirmed that I had Stargardt’s disease. He couldn’t tell me much more until I underwent more tests to know what stage it was at.
I went through all the necessary tests over the next few weeks and within that time my sight deteriorated further. By September 2014, I was registered severely sight impaired (blind). My sight was measured at 6/60 in both eyes meaning I was 6 times over the legal driving limit. I was in total disbelief about how much my whole life had changed within such a short space of time. As a mother of two, one of whom was autistic, and I felt terrified for our future.
Since we were living in army quarters in Surrey at the time of my diagnosis, we decided to relocate. We would move back home to Wales to have the support from our family and friends.
By December I started cane training. This difficult to accept as it made my loss of vision seem so much more real. It felt that everyone else would also be aware of my struggles. I hated feeling so vulnerable, however, I knew I couldn’t let this beat me and change the person I was. One way of coping that worked for me was to basically make fun of myself. We would joke that I was like Moses with my cane as crowds would part for me to walk through. Finding humor in these things helped me get through them.
Cane training was hard; I just never thought this would happen to me. In public, I would get odd looks from strangers if I got my phone out. At a music concert, I was harassed because the security guard let me skip the huge queue. Even with massive text on my phone, I was too scared to look at it in case people thought I was faking! I constantly worried about what people would think of me.
When my doctors told me about a charity called RP Fighting Blindness (Retina UK) it was the positive outlet I needed. I organized a successful music event where we raised £1200. After the fundraiser, I wanted to continue being positive and not let this disease define me as a person.
What It Means To Be Blind
Back home in Wales, I continued my cane training. I was terrified when I used my white cane because of the stigma attached to it. So I asked my support worker about the possibility of a cane in a different color. She ordered one for me from Canada and I now own a nice pink one! The fear was still there but it made me smile a little more.
As I continued to struggle with my sight loss, my support worker suggested I consider using a guide dog. I was approved and had few trial runs with different dogs to see how it felt using one. My fear of being out in public disappeared and I didn’t feel so vulnerable. It just felt that I was out walking a dog and I felt better supported. However, I decided to wait until my youngest is a bit older before getting one.
My main goal now is to raise awareness of what it means to be blind. I want people to realize that not everyone is in complete darkness. We can use our phones even if you see us also using a cane.
Often people say, “You don’t look blind?” or “But you can see?” These sorts of comments are why I want to share my story. Yes, I have lost my central vision, but I do still have my peripheral vision. I am not in complete darkness, but I am blind.
Falling Down & Getting Back Up
There have been a lot of low points throughout my journey. I’ve fallen down the stairs a few times and was knocked over by a professional bike when crossing the road. But one thing I won’t do is let it get me down.
Four months after we moved back to Wales my Mum got ill and passed away from a brain tumor. She died 4 weeks and 5 days after she was diagnosed. My mum is the reason I want to carry on being positive and why I want to raise more awareness. I know it’s what she would have wanted me to do. She motivates me every day to get up and just deal with it. I want to help others in my situation to understand what it is to be blind. And most importantly to never give up!
I’m hoping my new blog Me Myself and Eyes will help others, not just with blindness but living with a disability. Surrounding myself with my amazing family and friends makes handling the bad days so much easier. I’m hoping that I can be the support that someone needs who may not have the support network to get through day to day.
Kay Haines Featured Image Description:
Closeup photo of Woman On The Move, Kay Haines, with gorgeous blue eyes and coral lip color. She has long dark hair framing the left side of her face.
Kay is outside with her support worker doing guide dog training with a yellow lab.
This collage contains two images of Kay after she was hit by a bike. The first image shows her blackened right eye following the accident. In the second image, the eye is healing but still discolored.
“Teenage years are tough, learning who you are and understanding what you’re going to become. This was extra difficult as I was also learning about something I was losing. The feeling of losing something important every day over and over again.”
Being a teenager isn’t easy, let alone a teenager who is losing their sight. Today’s Blind Beauty, Georgie Beasley, is losing her eyesight to Stargardt Disease, a form of juvenile macular degeneration.
Diagnosed with the Stargardt Disease as an adolescent, Georgie is an extraordinarily, positive role model. While she shares some of the struggles associated with her sight loss she has a remarkable insight on life. Georgie’s desire to build awareness about sight loss prompted her to share her story on social media. As a matter of fact, earlier in the year she was featured in the Kalgoorlie Miner a local newspaper in Australia.
“I have come to accept myself and what I have [Stargardt Disease]. Though it really sucks that I can’t get my license, I have been offered so many great opportunities. It [sight loss] has also changed my perspective on life and how to treat others and live life.”
We will be hearing more from Georgie as she will also be a featured Woman On The Move in 2019.
Blind Beauty 63 Featured Image Description:
Featured image is a faux fashion magazine cover titled Blind Beauty. Georgie is on the cover sitting on a beach towel atop a white sandy beach. In the background are rolling waves and a distant low mountain range. Georgie is wearing sunglasses, white swimsuit, and a pair of striped shorts.
Blocks of text superimposed on Georgie’s photo are: “Bold–She Keeps Pressing Onward, Blind–She Has Deeper Insight, Beautiful–She Sees To The Heart Of Others.” “Real Beauty Transcends Barriers.” “Makeup Trends for 2019–How To Maintain A Flawless Look”
Georgie In Red: The blond-haired beauty is wearing a strapless red jumpsuit with gold fringe statement earrings.
A tri-panel collage of Georgie in 3 different photos. 1) In this Georgie’s hair is pulled back and she’s wearing a gray strappy gown. 2) A close-up of Georgie with her straight hair framing her face. She’s in a black top and looks like she’s about to eat something in her right hand. 3) Georgie is standing in front of a decorative stone focal point wall. In this photo she’s wearing a black tube top and yellow pants.
“Having been diagnosed at the age of 4 with Stargardt’s, I have known my whole life I was going to grow up to be “blind.” A lot of things have surprised me about vision loss along the way, but the thing that surprises me the most has nothing to do with vision at all. I have learned that I must speak up and advocate for myself. The most surprising thing along my vision loss Journey, has been how it’s helped me find my voice!”
Generally speaking, people seem to be fascinated by the capabilities of blind and visually impaired people. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been asked who does my makeup or pulls together my outfits.
Sometimes I feel the questions are a test where my answer will prove or disprove my level of sight. As I’ve discussed many times on Bold Blind Beauty, blindness is a spectrum condition.
The number of people who are completely blind is roughly around 10 percent. What this means is the majority of blind people have some residual sight which varies greatly from person to person. Our remaining sight is severe enough to impact day-to-day living and requires adaptations.
While Niki received her diagnosis at a very young age, she has to acclimate to declining levels of sight. Recently she decided to take Basic White Cane Training to maintain her independence and she shares her journey on Instagram.
Blind Beauty 62 Featured Image Description:
Featured image is a faux fashion magazine cover titled Blind Beauty. Niki is on the cover in black and white. She is sitting at the entryway to a barn on a wooden step. Beside her are decorative corn stalks with a couple of Halloween pumpkins. In the entrance behind her are stacked bales of hay. Niki’s outfit is described under additional images.
Blocks of text superimposed on Niki’s photo are: “Bold–She Keeps Pressing Onward, Blind–She Has Deeper Insight, Beautiful–She Sees To The Heart Of Others.” “Real Beauty Transcends Barriers.” “Makeup Trends for 2019–How To Maintain A Flawless Look”
In this color photo of Niki, she’s dressed for fall. She’s in a cream-colored jacket with tan pants and fashionable brown boots lace-up boots. Her look is completed with a burgundy/cream print scarf tied loosely around her neck.
This photo of Niki in the same outfit described above is a closeup of her sitting in the back of a blue truck bed. Whisps of wheat/blond hair frames her pretty profile.