The Unglamorous Life
This is just a quick note to let you know that yet again, I’ve recently been experiencing a decrease in the remainder of my vision. I debated whether or not to share this update here on the blog and finally decided to do so.
I’m scared, and over the course of the past week or so I have been almost paralyzed with fear because I wasn’t totally sure that what’s occurring is real or just my anxiety taking hold. My first indication that something was wrong was when I began having difficulty with selecting pictures for the blog to the point where I had to ask for help.
It sort of feels like everything is dimmer as there is definitely a lack of clarity. The feeling of the loss of control also puts me on edge.
Seeing the apps on my phone gradually fading along with the text on my 32 inch monitor (and yes it’s also magnified) is a little unnerving. Then I begin thinking things like “what if this is it, what if I totally lose my sight? How will I adapt to more vision loss? How will I continue my work?”
I don’t know the answers to all of the questions circling around in my head and all I can do at this point is pause. I’ll be seeing my ophthalmologist tomorrow and I’m hoping that whatever is going on can be resolved.
Yes, I’m scared but whatever happens by tomorrow I will once again be able to hit “Play.” I will update you as soon as I know what’s going on. ~Steph