The ego can take a serious blow when going through vision loss and I can speak to this from my own personal experience. Once I got beyond the initial shock of not being able to see, I had questions like: am I going to go completely blind, how will I drive, will I lose my job, how will I work, am I going to be able to take care of myself, how am I to go on? I wish I could say that these questions and periods of self-reflection on how I was going to muddle my way through this was an isolated incident but it I’ve found that it’s all part of the journey. If the questions weren’t depressing enough, literally looking in the mirror and seeing how distorted my face appeared was enough for me to just throw in the towel. Then that nagging voice of stubbornness in my head kept compelling me to remain patient, settle my nerves and get down to the business of living even if it meant having to (gasp) use the white cane.
You have to understand that early on I had a vision of myself as a high-powered real estate agent, or attorney and in my vision I modeled myself after the likes of Alexis Colby of Dynasty. Even though in reality I am the complete opposite of the character, Alexis, you have to admit that the woman had style. Pictured below is one of Alexis’ signature outfits in black and white. I just love the hat with the white brim and black crown, likewise the top of the dress with long white sleeves ever so slightly puffed at the shoulder and one long black lapel on the right side with a black bottom. Hmmm…maybe this is why I have an affinity for Cruella De Vil and own so much black and white in my own closet. I’m sure Dr. Phil would have a field day with why I use analogies containing antagonists but I digress.
Coming to Terms
After putting myself up against this outfit that Joan Collins is wearing the thought of using a white cane just somehow doesn’t mesh, or does it? What I’ve come to learn on this vision loss journey is that the clothes I wear, just like the skin I’m in does not define me as an individual so then why should using a tool that helps me to maintain my independence? Thought provoking isn’t it? More on this topic at a later date.
During Wardrobe Wednesdays I will talk about outfits and styles of particular interest to me. Since I’m still new to blogging and learning to use all the tools that WordPress has to offer, if you remain patient with me perhaps we can all learn together. This learning will include all the technical aspects associated with blogging such as taking pictures, shooting video, tagging, just to name a few. As the blog evolves I’m hoping that we can get to know one another better and build a great friendship.
“There is no passion to be found in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.” ~ Nelson Mandela